As I sit here, it’s almost the end of January, I’m typing my first blog post of 2014, and I have to tell you that this month has been one of restoration for my soul. I’m not really sure what caused it or why it happened, but God has been moving in my heart, bringing thankfulness, joy, and contentment.
The past four months were hard. My heart hurt, I lacked joy, I cried a lot, I couldn’t think straight, and I learned a lot about grief. Not the kind of grief from the loss of a loved one, but grief over loss of dreams, living with an unexpected reality, and challenges that I didn’t sign up for. Grief affects not just our heart and emotions, but the day-to-day activities that need to get done. I plan to carve some time to write this out in the coming weeks, but for now I can simply share with you that God’s grace and strength are powerful. He walks with us through challenges, never withholding His grace. Sorrow may last for a night, but His joy does come.
We had a whirlwind month in December with traveling, family visits for the holidays, home for Christmas, stomach bug for 2/3 of our household, and somewhere in there our oldest turned five, our second born is now four, our little guy is crawling, and our baby girl is six months old.
Life just goes on.
Time doesn’t stand still for us to capture all of the moments we so desperately want to hold near. It keeps ticking and we hold on to grace, we pour out love, and we seek to be near to the heart of God.